雙語(yǔ)名著·追風(fēng)箏的人 The Kite Runner(71)

12歲的阿富汗富家少爺阿米爾與仆人哈桑情同手足。然而，在一場(chǎng)風(fēng)箏比賽后，發(fā)生了一件悲慘不堪的事，阿米爾為自己的懦弱感到自責(zé)和痛苦，逼走了哈桑，不久，自己也跟隨父親逃往美國(guó)。

成年后的阿米爾始終無(wú)法原諒自己當(dāng)年對(duì)哈桑的背叛。為了贖罪，阿米爾再度踏上暌違二十多年的故鄉(xiāng)，希望能為不幸的好友盡最后一點(diǎn)心力，卻發(fā)現(xiàn)一個(gè)驚天謊言，兒時(shí)的噩夢(mèng)再度重演，阿米爾該如何抉擇?

故事如此殘忍而又美麗，作者以溫暖細(xì)膩的筆法勾勒人性的本質(zhì)與救贖，讀來(lái)令人蕩氣回腸。

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March 1981 A young woman sat across from us. She was dressed in an olive green dress with a black shawl wrapped tightly around her face against the night chill. She burst into prayer every time the truck jerked or stumbled into a pothole, her “Bismillah!” peaking with each of the truck’s shudders and jolts. Her husband, a burly man in baggy pants and sky blue turban, cradled an infant in one arm and thumbed prayer beads with his free hand. His lips moved in silent prayer. There were others, in all about a dozen, including Baba and me, sitting with our suitcases between our legs, cramped with these strangers in the tarpaulin-covered cab of an old Russian truck.
My innards had been roiling since we’d left Kabul just after two in the morning. Baba never said so, but I knew he saw my car sickness as yet another of my array of weakness--I saw it on his embarrassed face the couple of times my stomach had clenched so badly I had moaned. When the burly guy with the beads--the praying woman’s husband--asked if I was going to get sick, I said I might. Baba looked away. The man lifted his corner of the tarpaulin cover and rapped on the driver’s window, asked him to stop. But the driver, Karim, a scrawny dark-skinned man with hawk-boned features and a pencil-thin mustache, shook his head.
“We are too close to Kabul,” he shot back. “Tell him to have a strong stomach.”
Baba grumbled something under his breath. I wanted to tell him I was sorry, but suddenly I was salivating, the back of my throat tasting bile. I turned around, lifted the tarpaulin, and threw up over the side of the moving truck. Behind me, Baba was apologizing to the other passengers. As if car sickness was a crime. As if you weren’t supposed to get sick when you were eighteen. I threw up two more times before Karim agreed to stop, mostly so I wouldn’t stink up his vehicle, the instrument of his livelihood. Karim was a people smuggler--it was a pretty lucrative business then, driving people out of Shorawi-occupied Kabul to the relative safety of Pakistan. He was taking us to Jalalabad, about 170 kilometers southeast of Kabul, where his brother, Toor, who had a bigger truck with a second convoy of refugees, was waiting to drive us across the Khyber Pass and into Peshawar.
We were a few kilometers west of Mahipar Falls when Karim pulled to the side of the road. Mahipar--which means “Flying Fish”--was a high summit with a precipitous drop overlooking the hydro plant the Germans had built for Afghanistan back in 1967. Baba and I had driven over the summit countless times on our way to Jalalabad, the city of cypress trees and sugarcane fields where Afghans vacationed in the winter.
I hopped down the back of the truck and lurched to the dusty embankment on the side of the road. My mouth filled with saliva, a sign of the retching that was yet to come. I stumbled to the edge of the cliff overlooking the deep valley that was shrouded in dark ness. I stooped, hands on my kneecaps, and waited for the bile. Somewhere, a branch snapped, an owl hooted. The wind, soft and cold, clicked through tree branches and stirred the bushes that sprinkled the slope. And from below, the faint sound of water tumbling through the valley.
Standing on the shoulder of the road, I thought of the way we’d left the house where I’d lived my entire life, as if we were going out for a bite: dishes smeared with kofta piled in the kitchen sink; laundry in the wicker basket in the foyer; beds unmade; Baba’s business suits hanging in the closet. Tapestries still hung on the walls of the living room and my mother’s books still crowded the shelves in Baba’s study. The signs of our elopement were subtle: My parents’ wedding picture was gone, as was the grainy photograph of my grandfather and King Nader Shah standing over the dead deer. A few items of clothing were missing from the closets. The leather-bound notebook Rahim Khan had given me five years earlier was gone.
In the morning, Jalaluddin--our seventh servant in five years--would probably think we’d gone out for a stroll or a drive. We hadn’t told him. You couldn’t trust anyone in Kabul any more--for a fee or under threat, people told on each other, neighbor on neighbor, child on parent, brother on brother, servant on master, friend on friend. I thought of the singer Ahmad Zahir, who had played the accordion at my thirteenth birthday. He had gone for a drive with some friends, and someone had later found his body on the side of the road, a bullet in the back of his head. The rafiqs, the comrades, were everywhere and they’d split Kabul into two groups: those who eavesdropped and those who didn’t. The tricky part was that no one knew who belonged to which. A casual remark to the tailor while getting fitted for a suit might land you in the dungeons of Poleh-charkhi. Complain about the curfew to the butcher and next thing you knew, you were behind bars staring at the muzzle end of a Kalashnikov. Even at the dinner table, in the privacy of their home, people had to speak in a calculated manner--the rafiqs were in the classrooms too; they’d taught children to spy on their parents, what to listen for, whom to tell.
What was I doing on this road in the middle of the night? I should have been in bed, under my blanket, a book with dog-eared pages at my side. This had to be a dream. Had to be. Tomorrow morning, I’d wake up, peek out the window: No grim-faced Russian soldiers patrolling the sidewalks, no tanks rolling up and down the streets of my city, their turrets swiveling like accusing fingers, no rubble, no curfews, no Russian Army Personnel Carriers weaving through the bazaars. Then, behind me, I heard Baba and Karim discussing the arrangement in Jalalabad over a smoke. Karim was reassuring Baba that his brother had a big truck of “excellent and first-class quality,” and that the trek to Peshawar would be very routine. “He could take you there with his eyes closed,” Karim said. I overheard him telling Baba how he and his brother knew the Russian and Afghan soldiers who worked the checkpoints, how they had set up a “mutually profitable” arrangement. This was no dream. As if on cue, a MiG suddenly screamed past overhead. Karim tossed his cigarette and produced a hand gun from his waist. Pointing it to the sky and making shooting gestures, he spat and cursed at the MiG.
I wondered where Hassan was. Then the inevitable. I vomited on a tangle of weeds, my retching and groaning drowned in the deafening roar of the MiG. WE PULLED UP to the checkpoint at Mahipar twenty minutes later. Our driver let the truck idle and hopped down to greet the approaching voices. Feet crushed gravel. Words were exchanged, brief and hushed. A flick of a lighter. “Spasseba.”
Another flick of the lighter. Someone laughed, a shrill cackling sound that made me jump. Baba’s hand clamped down on my thigh. The laughing man broke into song, a slurring, off-key rendition of an old Afghan wedding song, delivered with a thick Russian accent:
Ahesta boro, Mah-e-man, ahesta boro.(Go slowly, my lovely moon, go slowly.)

1981年3月有個(gè)年輕的婦女坐在我們對(duì)面。她穿著一身橄欖綠服裝，黑色的披肩將面部包得嚴(yán)嚴(yán)實(shí)實(shí)，以抵御深夜的寒意。每逢卡車(chē)急剎或顛簸過(guò)路面的凹陷，她就會(huì)出聲祈禱，每次汽車(chē)的高低起伏總伴隨著她的“奉安拉之名”。她的丈夫身材矮壯，穿著破舊的褲子、天藍(lán)色的長(zhǎng)袍，一手抱著嬰兒，空出來(lái)的那只手用拇指轉(zhuǎn)動(dòng)著念珠。他嘴唇開(kāi)合，默默祈禱。同行的還有其他人，總共十來(lái)個(gè)，包括爸爸跟我，行李箱放在我們兩腿之間，盤(pán)膝坐在被帆布包起來(lái)的后斗上，跟這些陌生人擠在一起，搭乘這輛破舊的俄國(guó)卡車(chē)。
我們凌晨?jī)牲c(diǎn)離開(kāi)喀布爾，自那時(shí)起我的內(nèi)臟就已經(jīng)翻江倒海。雖然爸爸沒(méi)有說(shuō)什么，但我知道在他眼里，暈車(chē)是孱弱無(wú)能的表現(xiàn)——這可以從他的臉色看出來(lái)，有好幾次，我的胃收縮得厲害，忍不住呻吟，他的表情很尷尬。那個(gè)拿著念珠的矮壯男人——在祈禱的那個(gè)婦女的丈夫——問(wèn)我是不是要吐了，我說(shuō)可能是。爸爸把頭別開(kāi)。那男人掀起帆布的一角，敲敲駕駛室的窗門(mén)，要求司機(jī)停下來(lái)。司機(jī)卡林是個(gè)黑瘦的漢子，一張老鷹般的臉上留著小胡子，他搖搖頭。
“我們離喀布爾太近了。”他大喊，“讓他撐住?！?br />爸爸低聲咕噥了幾句。我想告訴他我很抱歉，但剎那間我滿(mǎn)嘴唾液，喉底嘗到膽汁的苦味。我轉(zhuǎn)過(guò)身，揭起帆布，在行進(jìn)的卡車(chē)一邊嘔吐起來(lái)。在我身后，爸爸正向其他乘客賠不是，仿佛暈車(chē)是犯罪，仿佛人們到了十八歲就不應(yīng)該暈車(chē)。我又吐了兩次，卡林這才同意停車(chē)，大部分原因還是因?yàn)閾?dān)心我弄臟他的車(chē)，他賴(lài)以謀生的工具。卡林是個(gè)蛇頭，從被俄國(guó)人占領(lǐng)的喀布爾，將人們偷偷運(yùn)到相對(duì)安全的巴基斯坦，這在當(dāng)時(shí)可是日進(jìn)斗金的生意。他把我們載往喀布爾西南170公里外的賈拉拉巴特，他的堂兄圖爾在那邊接應(yīng)，負(fù)責(zé)再送逃難的人一程，他有一輛更大的卡車(chē)，會(huì)載著我們通過(guò)開(kāi)伯爾隘口 。
卡林把車(chē)停在路旁，這時(shí)我們?cè)诂斚Ｅ疗俨家晕鲾?shù)公里的地方?，斚Ｅ痢囊馑际恰帮w翔的魚(yú)兒”——是一處山峰，壁立千仞，俯覽著下面1967年德國(guó)人為阿富汗援建的水電站。數(shù)不清有多少次，爸爸跟我路過(guò)那座山峰，前往賈拉拉巴特，那個(gè)遍地柏樹(shù)和甘蔗的城市是阿富汗人過(guò)冬的勝地。
我從卡車(chē)后面跳下去，跌跌撞撞走到路邊布滿(mǎn)塵灰的護(hù)欄。我嘴里漲滿(mǎn)了唾液，那是快要嘔吐的征兆。我蹣跚著走近懸崖邊，下面的深淵被黑暗吞噬了。我彎下腰，雙手撐在膝蓋上，做好嘔吐的準(zhǔn)備。在某個(gè)地方傳來(lái)樹(shù)枝劈啪作響的聲音，還有貓頭鷹的叫聲。寒風(fēng)微微拂動(dòng)樹(shù)枝，吹過(guò)山坡上的灌木叢。而下面，水流在山谷淌動(dòng)，傳來(lái)陣陣微弱的聲音。
我站在路肩上，想起我們?nèi)绾坞x開(kāi)家園，那個(gè)我生活了一輩子的地方。仿佛我們只是外出下館子：廚房的洗碗盆堆放著沾有肉丸夾餅殘?jiān)谋P(pán)子，盛滿(mǎn)衣物的柳條籃子擺在門(mén)廊，被褥還沒(méi)疊好，衣櫥里掛著爸爸做生意穿的套裝。起居室的墻上仍?huà)熘谔海覌寢尩膱D書(shū)仍擁擠地占據(jù)著爸爸書(shū)房里的架子。我們出逃的跡象很微妙：我父母的結(jié)婚照不見(jiàn)了，爺爺跟納達(dá)爾國(guó)王站在死鹿之前合影的那張老照片杳然無(wú)蹤。衣櫥里少了幾件衣服。五年前拉辛汗送我的那本皮面筆記本也消失了。
早晨，賈拉魯丁——五年來(lái)的第七個(gè)仆人——興許會(huì)以為我們出去散步或者兜風(fēng)。我們沒(méi)有告訴他。在喀布爾，你再不能相信任何人——為了獲得懸賞或者因?yàn)槭艿酵{，人們彼此告密：鄰居告發(fā)鄰居，兒童揭發(fā)父母，兄弟陷害兄弟，仆人背叛主人，朋友出賣(mài)朋友。我想起歌手艾哈邁德?查希爾，他在我13歲生日那天彈奏手風(fēng)琴。他和幾個(gè)朋友開(kāi)車(chē)去兜風(fēng)，隨后有人在路邊發(fā)現(xiàn)他的尸體，有顆子彈射中他的后腦。那些人無(wú)所不在，他們將喀布爾人分成兩派：告密的和沒(méi)有告密的。最麻煩的是，沒(méi)有人知道誰(shuí)屬于哪一派。裁縫給你量身時(shí)，你幾句無(wú)心快語(yǔ)可能會(huì)讓你身處波勒卡其區(qū)的黑牢。對(duì)賣(mài)肉的老板抱怨幾句宵禁，你的下場(chǎng)很可能是在牢欄之后望著俄制步槍的槍管。甚至在吃晚飯的桌子上，在自家的屋子里，人們說(shuō)話(huà)也得深思熟慮——教室里面也有這樣的人，他們教小孩監(jiān)視父母，該監(jiān)聽(tīng)些什么，該向誰(shuí)告發(fā)。
我三更半夜在這路邊干什么呢?我應(yīng)當(dāng)躺在床上，蓋著毯子，身旁放著一本毛邊的舊書(shū)。這肯定是一場(chǎng)夢(mèng)，肯定是。明天早晨，我會(huì)醒來(lái)，朝窗外望出去：人行道上沒(méi)有那些陰沉著臉的俄國(guó)士兵在巡邏；沒(méi)有坦克在我的城市里面耀武揚(yáng)威，它們的炮塔活像責(zé)難的手指那樣轉(zhuǎn)動(dòng)；沒(méi)有斷壁殘?jiān)瑳](méi)有宵禁，沒(méi)有俄國(guó)軍隊(duì)的運(yùn)兵車(chē)在市場(chǎng)上迂回前進(jìn)。這時(shí)，我聽(tīng)到爸爸和卡林在我身后討論到了賈拉拉巴特的安排，持續(xù)了一根煙的時(shí)間?？忠辉傧虬职直ＷC，他的兄弟有輛“很棒的、質(zhì)量一流的”大卡車(chē)，到白沙瓦去可謂輕車(chē)熟路。“他閉上眼也能把你們送到那兒?！笨终f(shuō)。我聽(tīng)見(jiàn)他跟爸爸說(shuō)，他和他的兄弟認(rèn)識(shí)把守關(guān)卡的俄國(guó)和阿富汗士兵，他們建立了一種“互惠互利”的關(guān)系。這不是夢(mèng)。一架“米格”戰(zhàn)斗機(jī)突然從頭頂呼嘯而過(guò)，仿佛在提醒這一切都是真的?？秩拥羰掷锏南銦煟瑥难g掏出一把手槍?zhuān)赶蛱炜?，做出射擊的姿?shì)，他朝那架米格吐口水，高聲咒罵。
我想知道哈桑在哪里。跟著，不可避免地，我對(duì)著雜草叢吐出來(lái)，我的嘔吐聲和呻吟聲被米格震耳欲聾的轟鳴淹沒(méi)了。過(guò)了二十分鐘，我們停在瑪希帕的檢查站。司機(jī)沒(méi)熄火，跳下車(chē)去問(wèn)候走上前來(lái)的聲音。鞋子踏上沙礫。短促的低聲交談?；饳C(jī)打火的聲音?！爸x謝。”有人用俄語(yǔ)說(shuō)。
又一聲打火的火機(jī)聲。有人大笑，一陣令人毛骨悚然的劈啪聲讓我跳起來(lái)。爸爸伸手按住我的大腿。發(fā)笑的那個(gè)男人哼起歌來(lái)，帶著厚厚的俄國(guó)口音，含糊走調(diào)地唱著一首古老的阿富汗婚禮歌謠：
慢慢走，我心愛(ài)的月亮，慢慢走。