7 Darcy proposes marriage
7 達(dá)西求婚
Elizabeth was sitting by herself the next morning, writ- ing to Jane, while Mrs Collins and Maria were shopping in the village.She heard the doorbell ring, and knew that meant a visitor had arrived, but she was greatly surprised when Mr Darcy,and Mr Darcy only, was shown into the room.
第二天早上,伊麗莎白獨(dú)自坐著,給簡(jiǎn)寫(xiě)信??铝炙固同斃麃喸诖謇镔I(mǎi)東西。她聽(tīng)到門(mén)鈴響,知道有客人來(lái)了,但她見(jiàn)到達(dá)西先生,并且只有達(dá)西先生一個(gè)人被領(lǐng)進(jìn)屋時(shí),感到奇怪極了。
He seemed astonished too,on finding her alone.‘I apologize for disturbing you,Miss Bennet.I understood that all the ladies were at home.’
他發(fā)現(xiàn)她獨(dú)自一人,也似乎很驚訝。“班納特小姐,對(duì)不起,打擾你了。我還以為所有的女士都在家。”
‘Please don't apologize,Mr Darcy.I hope Lady Catherine and her daughter are well?’
“達(dá)西先生,請(qǐng)不要客氣。我想凱瑟琳夫人和小姐都還好吧?”
‘Very well,thank you.’He said no more.
“很好,謝謝。”他又不說(shuō)話了。
As he seemed in danger of sinking into total silence, Elizabeth had to think of something to say.She remarked, ‘How very suddenly you all left Netherfield last November, Mr Darcy!I hope Mr Bingley and his sisters were well,when you left London?’
看樣子他有危險(xiǎn)陷入完全的沉默。伊麗莎白必須找話說(shuō)了。她說(shuō):“達(dá)西先生,去年11月,你們離開(kāi)尼日斐太突然了,我想彬格萊先生和他的妹妹在你離開(kāi)倫敦時(shí)還好吧?”
‘Perfectly, thank you.’That was all the answer he gave.
“很好,謝謝。”這就是全部回答。
‘I think I have heard that Mr Bingley has not much idea of ever returning to Netherfield again?’
“我想我聽(tīng)說(shuō)過(guò),彬格萊先生不怎么打算再回尼日斐了?”
‘It is probable that he will spend very little of his time there in future.He has many friends elsewhere.’
“將來(lái)他可能不會(huì)在那個(gè)地方呆多長(zhǎng)時(shí)間。他別處有很多朋友。”
Elizabeth did not want to talk any longer about Mr Bingley, and,determined to leave the conversation to Mr Darcy, she remained silent. He understood, and soon began to speak again.
伊麗莎白不想再往下談彬格萊先生了,下決心把話題留給達(dá)西先生,于是她保持沉默。他明白了,不一會(huì)兒,就又開(kāi)口說(shuō)話了。
Mr Collins appears very fortunate in his choice of a wife.’
“柯林斯先生選了這樣一位妻子似乎很幸運(yùn)。”
‘Yes, indeed. She is one of the few sensible women who would have accepted him,although I'm not sure I consider her marrying Mr Collins as the wisest thing she ever did.She seems perfectly happy, however, and financially speaking,it's a good marriage.’
“是的,一點(diǎn)不錯(cuò)。有思想的婦女能接受他的不多,她便是其中的一個(gè)。不過(guò),我不敢肯定地認(rèn)為她嫁給柯林斯先生是最明智的做法??墒?,她似乎十分幸福,況且從經(jīng)濟(jì)上講,這個(gè)婚姻也不錯(cuò)。”
‘It must be very agreeable to her to be such a short distance from her own family and friends.’
“離娘家和朋友這么近,她一定覺(jué)得很滿意。”
‘A short distance,you say?It is nearly eighty kilometres!’
“你說(shuō)離得那么近?差不多八十公里呢!”
‘And what is that?Little more than half a day's journey, on a good road.Yes,I call it a very short distance.’
“那算得了什么,半天多一點(diǎn)就到了,若是路好的話。是的,我認(rèn)為是很近。”
‘I would never have said Mrs Collins lived near her family,’cried Elizabeth.
“我永遠(yuǎn)不會(huì)認(rèn)為柯林斯太太住得離娘家近,”伊麗莎白大聲說(shuō)。
‘That shows how much you are attached to Hertfordshire. Anywhere outside the Longbourn area would,I suppose, seem far away to you. As he spoke,he smiled a little.
“這說(shuō)明你對(duì)哈福德郡的感情太深了。我想,浪搏恩以外的任何地方對(duì)你來(lái)說(shuō)都是很遠(yuǎn)的。”他說(shuō)話時(shí),露出了一絲微笑。
Perhaps he supposed she was thing of Jane and Nether- field, thought Elizabeth, and she blushed.‘ Whether the dis- tance seems long or short depends on many circumstances.If the family’ s income is large enough to pay for frequent jour- neys,then distance is not a problem.But Mr and Mrs Collins will not be able to afford to travel very often,despite their comfortable income.I'm certain my friend does not consider Hunsford near her family.’
伊麗莎白想,也許他認(rèn)為自己在想簡(jiǎn)和尼日斐,于是臉就紅了。“距離的遠(yuǎn)近取決于很多因素。如果家庭收入足以支付頻繁的往來(lái),那么距離就不成問(wèn)題。但是,雖然他們有舒適的收入,柯林斯夫婦是承受不起經(jīng)常的旅行的。我相信,我的朋友不會(huì)認(rèn)為漢斯福離她家很近。”
Mr Darcy moved his chair a little towards her, and said, ‘You cannot have a right to such a very strong local attach-ment.You haven't spent your whole life at Longbourn, I am sure.
達(dá)西先生把椅子朝她挪了挪,說(shuō):“你不該有這樣強(qiáng)的鄉(xiāng)土觀念??梢钥隙ǖ卣f(shuō),你不會(huì)一輩子都在浪搏恩度過(guò)的。”
Elizabeth looked surprised.Experiencing a change of feeling, the gentleman moved his chair away again, took a newspaper from the table,and,glancing at it,said in a colder voice,‘Are you pleased with Kent?’They discussed Kent calmly and po- litely for a few minutes, and were then interrupted by Char- lotte and Maria, who had returned from the village. Mr Darcy sat a little while longer,without saying much to anybody,and then went away.
伊麗莎白看起來(lái)有點(diǎn)驚奇。那位先生感受到了感情的變化,便又把椅子挪開(kāi),從桌上拿了一張報(bào)紙,瞟了瞟,用冷淡些的語(yǔ)氣說(shuō):“你對(duì)肯特郡感到滿意嗎?”他們又平靜客氣地討論了一會(huì)兒肯特郡,然后夏洛特和瑪利亞打斷了他們,這兩個(gè)人已從村里回來(lái)了。達(dá)西先生又坐了一會(huì)兒,也沒(méi)跟誰(shuí)說(shuō)多少話,便離開(kāi)了。
‘What can be the meaning of this!’said Charlotte, as soon as he had gone.‘My dear Lizzy, he must be in love with you, or he would never have visited us in this familiar way.’
“這是什么意思!”他剛走,夏洛特就說(shuō)。“親愛(ài)的麗萃,他一定是愛(ài)上了你,否則,他絕不會(huì)以這種親切的方式拜訪我們。”
But when Elizabeth described his silence, that did not seem likely, even to hopeful Charlotte, and they could only suppose that he had nothing better to do.In fact, from now on, both Mr Darcy and Colonel Fitzwilliam called regularly at the Rectory. It was obvious that Colonel Fitzwilliam came because he en- joyed talking to the ladies, and Elizabeth was reminded by her own satisfaction in being with him, as well as by his evident admiration of her,of her former favourite,Wickham.But it was more difficult to understand why Mr Darcy came. He did not often speak, and seldom appeared interested in the conversa- tion Even Charlotte, who observed Mr Darcy closely, was not sure whether he admired Elizabeth or not, and began to hope that perhaps her friend might marry Colonel Fitzwilliam in- stead.
可是,當(dāng)伊麗莎白描述了他沉默的樣子之后,甚至是滿懷希望的夏洛特也覺(jué)得那不大可能。這樣,她們只能猜測(cè)他是沒(méi)事可做才來(lái)的。實(shí)際上,就從這時(shí)起,達(dá)西先生和費(fèi)茨威廉上校開(kāi)始定期造訪教區(qū)長(zhǎng)住宅。顯然,費(fèi)茨威廉上校來(lái)此是因?yàn)樗矚g與女士們交談,伊麗莎白和他在一起感到很滿意,而他又顯然愛(ài)慕她,這兩者都使她想起以前的寵兒韋翰先生??墒?,要弄明白達(dá)西先生為什么來(lái)就更困難些。他不常講話,也很少對(duì)談話表現(xiàn)出興趣。即使是密切注視達(dá)西先生的夏洛特,也不敢肯定他是否愛(ài)慕伊麗莎白,于是,她開(kāi)始希望,也許伊麗莎白可以轉(zhuǎn)而嫁給費(fèi)茨威廉上校。
When she took her daily walk along the path bordering the park, Elizabeth met Mr Darcy unexpectedly more than once. This was the more surprising, because she was careful to in- form him that it was her favourite walk, So that he could avoid meeting her.It was also strange that, although he could just have greeted her and walked on, he always thought it necessary to turn back and walk with her.She could not quite understand him.
伊麗莎白每天沿公園旁的小徑散步時(shí),不止一次地意外碰到達(dá)西先生。這就更奇怪了,因?yàn)樗⌒牡馗嬖V他這是她最喜歡的散步方式,以便讓他避免碰見(jiàn)她。還有令人奇怪的是,他完全可以只和她打個(gè)招呼便繼續(xù)往前走,可他總是覺(jué)得有必要掉轉(zhuǎn)頭和她一起走。她搞不大明白。
But one day, as she was walking, she met Colonel Fitzwilliam, not Mr Darcy, and greeted him with a smile. They walked back to the Rectory together.
可是有一天,她在散步時(shí)碰到了費(fèi)茨威廉上校,而不是達(dá)西先生,便微笑著和他打了招呼。他們一塊走回到教區(qū)長(zhǎng)住宅。
‘Are you leaving Kent this Sunday?’she asked.
“你們這個(gè)星期日離開(kāi)肯特郡嗎?”她問(wèn)道。
‘Yes,if Darcy doesn't put it off again.’
“是的,如果達(dá)西不再往后推的話。”
‘He is fortunate to be able to arrange things as he likes.’
“他很幸運(yùn),安排事情有自主權(quán)。”
‘Well,we all want to do that,’replied Colonel Fitzwilliam.
“哎,我們都想有自主權(quán),”費(fèi)茨威廉上校回答說(shuō)。
‘But he is used to doing what he likes, because he is rich, and many others are poor.I,for example—I'm a younger son,you know, and won't inherit my father's fortune, so I shall never be rich or independent, like Darcy.’
“但是他習(xí)慣于我行我素,因?yàn)樗芨挥?,而其他很多人都很窮。比方說(shuō)我——我不是長(zhǎng)子,你也知道,繼承不了父親的家產(chǎn),因此,我永遠(yuǎn)不會(huì)像達(dá)西那樣富有或獨(dú)立自主。”
‘Now seriously, you cannot call yourself poor.When have you ever suffered because of lack of money?’
“認(rèn)真點(diǎn)兒講,你不能說(shuō)自己窮。你什么時(shí)候因缺錢(qián)受過(guò)罪?”
‘Well,perhaps I haven't really suffered much yet.But there are difficulties.A younger son doesn't have a free choice when marrying.He cannot afford to marry a girl with no fortune.’
“也許我還沒(méi)有真正受過(guò)罪。但確實(shí)有困難。小兒子結(jié)婚時(shí)沒(méi)有自由選擇的余地。他沒(méi)有經(jīng)濟(jì)能力同沒(méi)有財(cái)產(chǎn)的女人結(jié)婚。”
Elizabeth blushed, thinking that he might mean her, and be- gan to talk of something else. She asked him about Darcy's sis- ter,and mentioned that the Bingley sisters liked her very much.
伊麗莎白臉一紅,覺(jué)得他可能指自己,于是趕緊岔開(kāi)了話題。她問(wèn)他達(dá)西的妹妹的情況,并提及彬格萊姐妹很喜歡她。
‘Bingley—yes,I know them.Their brother is very pleasant—a great friend of Darcy’ s,’answered Colonel Fitzwilliam.
“彬格萊——是的,我認(rèn)識(shí)她們。她們的哥哥很招人喜歡——是達(dá)西的好朋友之一,”費(fèi)茨威廉上校回答說(shuō)。
‘Oh, yes, Mr Darcy is extremely kind to Mr Bingley, and takes very good care of him,’said Elizabeth drily.
“哦,是的,達(dá)西先生對(duì)彬格萊先生極好,對(duì)他十分關(guān)照,”伊麗莎白冷冰冰地說(shuō)。
‘Yes, I believe Darcy does take care of Bingley.I'm think- ing of a recent situation, which Darcy was telling me about on the journey here.He was congratulating himself on having saved a friend from a most foolish marriage. Of course, I'm not sure the friend was Bingley,as Darcy didn't mention the name.
“是的,我覺(jué)得達(dá)西確實(shí)關(guān)照彬格萊。我想起了最近的一件事,是達(dá)西在到這里來(lái)的路上告訴我的。他慶幸自己阻止了一位朋友卷入一樁最愚蠢的婚姻。當(dāng)然,我不敢肯定這位朋友就是彬格萊,因?yàn)檫_(dá)西沒(méi)有提他的名字。”
‘Did Mr Darcy give you his reasons for interfering?’
“達(dá)西先生是否擺出了干涉的理由?”
‘I understood that there were some very strong objections to the lady.’
“我的理解是有些人強(qiáng)烈反對(duì)這位小姐。”
Elizabeth could not speak for a moment.When she was able to control her anger, she changed the conversation.As soon as they reached the Rectory, she said goodbye to Colonel Fitzwilliam,and went straight upstairs to her room.At last she could think without interruption about what he had told her. Bingley,nust have been the friend to whom Darcy was refer- ring.She had always assumed that Darcy was involved in the plan to separate Jane and Bingley, but it now appeared that he, not Miss Bingley, was the main cause of all that Jane had suffered, and still continued to suffer.The‘very strong objec- tions to the lady’probably consisted of having one uncle who was a country lawyer, and another who was in business in Lon- don.There could be no possible objections to Jane herself, as she was intelligent, beautiful and charming. Nor could anyone object to Mr Bennet as a father-in-law.When Elizabeth thought of her mother, she felt a little less confident. She was still convinced,however, that Mr Darcy was interested in high- born connections rather than character or common sense. It was this, the worst kind of pride, which had destroyed for a while every hope of happiness for the most affectionate, gener- ons heart in the world.
伊麗莎白一時(shí)說(shuō)不出話來(lái)。她壓住心頭的怒火,改變了話題。他們一到教區(qū)長(zhǎng)住宅,她便向費(fèi)茨威廉上校道了別,徑直到了樓上自己的房間。現(xiàn)在終于可以不受干擾,獨(dú)自思考一下他告訴她的這件事了。達(dá)西所指的那位朋友一定是彬格萊。她一直都在猜測(cè)達(dá)西參與了拆散簡(jiǎn)和彬格萊的計(jì)劃,但現(xiàn)在似乎清楚了,是他,而不是彬格萊小姐,做了簡(jiǎn)已經(jīng)遭受和繼續(xù)遭受的痛苦的罪魁禍?zhǔn)住?ldquo;強(qiáng)烈反對(duì)這位小姐”的原因可能包括她有一個(gè)姨父做鄉(xiāng)村律師,還有個(gè)舅舅在倫敦做買(mǎi)賣(mài)。對(duì)簡(jiǎn)本人不大可能有什么反對(duì)意見(jiàn),因?yàn)樗敺f、漂亮、迷人。也不會(huì)有人反對(duì)認(rèn)班納特先生做老岳父的。伊麗莎白想到母親時(shí),感到有點(diǎn)缺乏自信。但是,她仍然堅(jiān)信,達(dá)西先生只喜歡攀出身高貴的人,不喜歡平民百姓。正是這種最?lèi)憾镜陌谅?,暫時(shí)毀掉了世界上最摯誠(chéng)、最寬厚的一顆心所抱的每一線獲得幸福的希望。
Thinking about all this made Elizabeth so upset and unhap- py that she soon had a headache.It grew so much worse in the evening, and she was so unwilling to see Mr Darcy, that she decided not to go to Rosings that evening with Mr and Mrs Collins. Instead,she stayed in the Rectory sitting-room, reread- ing Jane's recent letters from London.She was saddened to discover that, although Jane never complained, or referred to the past,in almost every line there was a lack of cheerfulness, which Elizabeth had not noticed the first time, and which now made her rather anxious.She was relieved to think that Darcy would be leaving Rosings in two days’ time, and she herself would be with Jane in less than two weeks.Colonel Fitzwilliam would also be leaving with Darcy, but he had made it clear that he had no intention of proposing to her, so she did not intend to be unhappy about him.
想到所有這些,伊麗莎白感到萬(wàn)分不安和難過(guò),一會(huì)兒就犯了頭痛玻到了晚上,頭痛愈加劇烈,加上她不愿見(jiàn)到達(dá)西先生,于是她決定晚上不陪柯林斯夫婦去羅新斯了。相反,她呆在教區(qū)長(zhǎng)家的起居室里,重讀簡(jiǎn)最近從倫敦的來(lái)信。她難過(guò)地發(fā)現(xiàn),雖然簡(jiǎn)從來(lái)沒(méi)有抱怨過(guò)或提起過(guò)過(guò)去,但信中幾乎每一行都流露出悶悶不樂(lè)的情緒。伊麗莎白讀第一遍時(shí)沒(méi)注意到,現(xiàn)在這使她有點(diǎn)焦急。一想到達(dá)西再過(guò)兩天就要離開(kāi)羅新斯,她本人也將在兩周后見(jiàn)到簡(jiǎn),心里便放松了一點(diǎn)。費(fèi)茨威廉上校也將同達(dá)西一塊走,但他已經(jīng)挑明他無(wú)意向她求婚,所以,她不打算為他表示悲傷。
Just then,she heard the doorbell,and wondered if it might be Colonel Fitzwilliam, come to enquire about her health. But to her astonishment she saw Mr Darcy walk into the room. In a hrried manner he began to ask how she was feeling.She answered him with cold politeness.He sat down for a few mo- ments, and then, getting up, walked about the room. Elizabeth was surprised, but said nothing. After a silence of several min- utes, he came towards her, with none of his usual calmness, and said,‘In vain have I struggled.It is no good.I cannot conquer my feelings. You must allow me to tell you how warmly I admire and love you.’
正在這時(shí),她聽(tīng)到了門(mén)鈴聲,心中納悶會(huì)不會(huì)是費(fèi)茨威廉上校來(lái)探問(wèn)她的身體狀況。但是,令她大吃一驚的是,她看到達(dá)西先生走進(jìn)了屋子。他匆匆地開(kāi)始詢問(wèn)她感覺(jué)如何。她冷冰冰地客氣地回答了他。他坐下,呆了一會(huì)兒,然后又站起來(lái),在房間里踱來(lái)踱去。伊麗莎白感到奇怪,但什么也沒(méi)說(shuō)。幾分鐘沉默過(guò)后,他朝她走過(guò)來(lái),一掃平時(shí)的冷靜,說(shuō)道:“我徒勞地進(jìn)行思想斗爭(zhēng),但毫無(wú)用處。我再也無(wú)法控制自己的感情了。請(qǐng)?jiān)试S我告訴你我多么敬慕你,多么愛(ài)你。”
Elizabeth stared, blushed, doubted, and was silent. He con- sidered this sufficient encouragement, and confessed all that he felt, and had felt for a long time, for her. He expressed himself well, but it was not only of love that he spoke. He also talked of his pride, and his sense of her social inferiority, which had made him struggle against his feelings for so long.
伊麗莎白瞪大了眼睛,漲紅了臉,滿腹狐疑,一句話也說(shuō)不出來(lái)。他一看這情景,認(rèn)為是在慫恿自己說(shuō)下去,立即向她傾吐了所有的感情,既有現(xiàn)在的,也有長(zhǎng)期以來(lái)就感受到的。他表達(dá)得很充分,不但談了他的愛(ài),還談到了他的傲慢,談到他覺(jué)得她出身卑徽,正是這一點(diǎn)使他與感情進(jìn)行了長(zhǎng)期的思想斗爭(zhēng)。
In spite of her dislike for him,Elizabeth appreciated what a compliment such a man's affection was, and was at first sorry for the pain he was about to receive.But soon, as she heard his references to her inferior position,she lost all pity,and became very angry.She waited patiently,however,until he had finished.He ended by describing the strength of his love for her, whicn,in spite of all his attempts, he had been unable to con- quer with arguments of reason and common sense, and finally he asked for her hand in marriage.She could see that he had no doubt of a favourable answer, which only made her angrier.
雖然伊麗莎白討厭他,但她認(rèn)識(shí)到能得到這樣的男人的愛(ài)是多大的恭維呀,所以開(kāi)始時(shí)還對(duì)他即將接受的痛苦感到遺憾。但不久,她聽(tīng)到他說(shuō)自己出身卑微,所有的憐憫之情便為憤怒所取代。但是,她耐心地等到他講完。他最后形容了他對(duì)她的愛(ài)的力量,雖然他幾經(jīng)努力,但這種愛(ài)情的力量是無(wú)法用理性和經(jīng)驗(yàn)戰(zhàn)勝的,最后,他請(qǐng)求她接受他的求婚。她看得出,他自信能得到肯定的回答,這使得她更加惱怒。
‘I believe society considers it correct,in cases like this,’she replied,‘to express grateful thanks.So if I could feel grateful, I would now thank you.But I cannot—I have never wanted your good opinion of me, and I cannot accept it.I'm sorry to hurt anyone, but it has not been done deliberately, and I hope the pain will not last long.The pride which, you tell me,has long prevented the expression of your affection, can have little difficulty in conquering your feelings after this explanation.’
她回答道:“我想,在這種情況下,社會(huì)上會(huì)認(rèn)為應(yīng)當(dāng)表達(dá)一下感激之情。因此,如果我真覺(jué)得感激,我現(xiàn)在會(huì)謝你的??上椰F(xiàn)在沒(méi)有這種感覺(jué)——我從來(lái)不稀罕你的抬舉,我也不接受你的抬舉。我不愿?jìng)θ魏稳?,但我并不是故意的,我希望這痛苦不會(huì)持續(xù)太久。你說(shuō)過(guò),高傲使得你長(zhǎng)期以來(lái)無(wú)法表達(dá)愛(ài)慕之情,但在你聽(tīng)了我的解釋之后,高傲?xí)敛毁M(fèi)力地戰(zhàn)勝你的感情。”
Mr Darcy, whose eyes were fixed on her face, was both an- gry and surprised by her words.His face went pale, and he was clearly struggling to control himself. There was a dreadful pause, and then he spoke in a voice of forced calmness.
達(dá)西先生一雙眼睛緊緊盯著她的臉,聽(tīng)了這話,既氣憤,又驚奇。他的臉色煞白,很顯然在努力控制自己??膳碌耐nD過(guò)后,他竭力裝出一副鎮(zhèn)定的樣子說(shuō):
‘And this is all the reply I am to have the honour of expect- ing!I might,perhaps,wish to be informed why,with so little attempt at politeness,I am rejected.’
“我很榮幸,竟能得到這樣一個(gè)回答。也許我可以請(qǐng)教一下,為什么我竟會(huì)遭到如此無(wú)禮的拒絕?”
‘I might as well ask why,with so evident a wish to offend and insult me, you chose to tell me that you loved me against your reason and even against your character.But even if my own feelings towards you had been favourable, do you think anything could tempt me to accept the man who has destroyed, perhaps for ever, the happiness of a most dear sister?’
“我也要請(qǐng)教你一下,你明明存心要冒犯我、侮辱我,卻為什么要違背理性甚至自己的品格,說(shuō)你愛(ài)我。但是,即便我對(duì)你的感情是肯定的,那么,也請(qǐng)你想一想,還有什么能打動(dòng)我的心,讓我去愛(ài)一個(gè)毀了我最親愛(ài)的姐姐的幸福、甚至永遠(yuǎn)毀了她幸福的人?”
As she said this, Mr Darcy changed colour, but he listened without trying to interrupt her as she continued.
達(dá)西聽(tīng)了她的話,臉色大變。但他聽(tīng)著她繼續(xù)往下說(shuō),一時(shí)不想插嘴。
‘I have every reason in the world to think badly of you.Can you deny that you were the cause of Jane's separation from Mr Bingley,and of her unhappiness?Can you deny it?’
“我有千萬(wàn)條理由把你往壞里想。你能否認(rèn)你是拆散簡(jiǎn)和彬格萊先生、毀掉她幸福的罪魁禍?zhǔn)讍?你能否認(rèn)嗎?”
‘I have no wish to deny that I did everything I could to separate them, and that I am delighted with my success. Towards my friend I have been kinder than to myself.’
“我不想否認(rèn)我竭盡全力把他們拆散,而且我還為我的成功感到喜悅。我對(duì)朋友比對(duì)自己體貼。”
Elizabeth treated this last remark with disdain, but its meaning did not escape her.‘But it is not only because of Jane that I dislike you. My opinion of you was decided long ago.I heard all about your character from Mr Wickham. Now, what can you have to say on this matter? How can you defend yourself?’
伊麗莎白對(duì)他最后一句話十分鄙視,但他的用意她當(dāng)然清楚。“但是,并不僅僅是因?yàn)楹?jiǎn)我才討厭你。我對(duì)你早有成見(jiàn),韋翰先生把你的品格全告訴我了。現(xiàn)在,對(duì)這個(gè)你還有什么話可說(shuō)?你怎么為自己辯護(hù)?”
‘You take an eager interest in that gentleman,’said Darcy, less calmly than before The colour was rising in his face.
“你對(duì)那位先生倒挺關(guān)心的,”達(dá)西說(shuō)道,語(yǔ)氣已沒(méi)有先前鎮(zhèn)定。他的臉也更紅了。
‘Who can help feeling an interest in him,when we hear of the unfortunate life he has had!’
“凡是聽(tīng)過(guò)他不幸遭遇的人,誰(shuí)能不關(guān)心他!”
‘Unfortunate!’repeated Darcy contemptuously.‘Yes,unfortunate indeed.’
“不幸遭遇!”達(dá)西輕蔑地重復(fù)道。“是的,真夠不幸的。”
‘And it was your fault,’cried Elizabeth with energy.‘You took away his chance of a comfortable income and a good position, which you knew had been intended for him.You have left him poor, and dependent, and disappointed.You have done all this!And you can still treat the mention of his name with contempt.’
“這都是你一手造成的,”伊麗莎白使勁高聲說(shuō)。“是你剝奪了他享受舒適的收入和良好地位的機(jī)會(huì),你清楚,這些本來(lái)都是屬于他的。是你造成了他的貧困,讓他無(wú)法獨(dú)立,滿心失望。這一切都是你干的!可是現(xiàn)在,你提起他的名字卻還帶著鄙夷。”
‘And this,’ cried Darcy, as he walked with quick steps across the room,‘is your opinion of me!Thank you for explaining it so fully.But perhaps you might not have considered these offences of mine,if your pride had not been hurt by my honest confession of my reasons for not proposing to you earlier.Perhaps I should have hidden my struggles,and flat- tered you by pretending I had every reason to love you.But I hate disguise of any sort.Nor am I ashamed of my feelings of pride,which are very natural.Could you expect me to delight in the inferiority of your family compared to mine?’
“這就是你對(duì)我的看法!”達(dá)西一邊大聲叫嚷,一邊快速往屋子那頭走。“謝謝你解釋得這樣周全。不過(guò)要不是我把以前遲疑不決的原因如實(shí)說(shuō)出來(lái),傷害了你的自尊心,也許你不會(huì)計(jì)較我得罪你的這些地方。也許我應(yīng)當(dāng)把我的思想矛盾隱瞞起來(lái),假裝我有一切愛(ài)你的理由,來(lái)奉承你。但是,我不喜歡任何形式的偽裝。我也不為自己的高傲感到羞恥,因?yàn)槟鞘呛茏匀坏摹ky道你指望我為你那些同我的親戚無(wú)法相提并論的微賤的親戚歡欣鼓舞嗎?”
Elizabeth felt herself growing more angry every moment.
伊麗莎白感到越來(lái)越氣惱。
‘Mr Darcy, you could not have made me the offer of your hand in any possible way that would have tempted me to accept it. The moment I first met you,I noticed your pride, your sense of superiority, and your selfish disdain for the feelings of others. Later events strengthened my dislike for you.You are the last man in the world whom I could ever be persuaded to marry.’
“達(dá)西先生,你用任何方式向我求婚,也不能打動(dòng)我,讓我接受。從認(rèn)識(shí)你的那一剎那起,我就注意到了你的狂妄自大、你高人一等的感覺(jué)以及對(duì)別人感情的自私蔑視。以后發(fā)生的事加深了我對(duì)你的反感。哪怕天下男人都死光了,我也不愿嫁給你。”
‘You have said quite enough, madam.I perfectly understand your feelings.Forgive me for having taken up so much of your time,and accept my best wishes for your health and happiness.’
“你說(shuō)夠了,小姐,我完全理解你的感情。占用了你這么多時(shí)間,請(qǐng)?jiān)?。我衷心地祝愿你健康、幸?!?rdquo;
With these words he hurried out of the room, and the house. Elizabeth felt so weak that she sat down and cried for half an hour.She was so astonished to have received a proposal from Mr Darcy!His affection for her must indeed have been strong,to conquer all the objections he had to her family and position, objections which had made him prevent his friend marrying her sister. But his terrible pride, his shameless confes- sion of what he had done to separate Jane and Bingley, and his 150cruelty towards Wickham soon removed any pity she might have felt for him.
說(shuō)完這些話,他匆匆走出房間,走出宅院。伊麗莎白感到虛弱無(wú)比,坐下來(lái)哭了半個(gè)小時(shí)。達(dá)西先生向他求婚,簡(jiǎn)直太令人驚訝了!他對(duì)她的愛(ài)一定的確十分強(qiáng)烈,它克服了家庭、地位的障礙,克服了自己用以阻撓朋友同她姐姐結(jié)婚的障礙。但他那可怕的高傲自大,他那對(duì)拆散簡(jiǎn)和彬格萊的姻緣的恬不知恥的坦白,以及他對(duì)韋翰的殘酷無(wú)情,不久便把她可能產(chǎn)生的憐憫之情沖刷得蕩然無(wú)存。
7 Darcy proposes marriage
Elizabeth was sitting by herself the next morning, writ- ing to Jane, while Mrs Collins and Maria were shopping in the village.She heard the doorbell ring, and knew that meant a visitor had arrived, but she was greatly surprised when Mr Darcy,and Mr Darcy only, was shown into the room.
He seemed astonished too,on finding her alone.‘I apologize for disturbing you,Miss Bennet.I understood that all the ladies were at home.’
‘Please don't apologize,Mr Darcy.I hope Lady Catherine and her daughter are well?’
‘Very well,thank you.’He said no more.
As he seemed in danger of sinking into total silence, Elizabeth had to think of something to say.She remarked, ‘How very suddenly you all left Netherfield last November, Mr Darcy!I hope Mr Bingley and his sisters were well,when you left London?’
‘Perfectly, thank you.’That was all the answer he gave.
‘I think I have heard that Mr Bingley has not much idea of ever returning to Netherfield again?’
‘It is probable that he will spend very little of his time there in future.He has many friends elsewhere.’
Elizabeth did not want to talk any longer about Mr Bingley, and,determined to leave the conversation to Mr Darcy, she remained silent. He understood, and soon began to speak again.
Mr Collins appears very fortunate in his choice of a wife.’
‘Yes, indeed. She is one of the few sensible women who would have accepted him,although I'm not sure I consider her marrying Mr Collins as the wisest thing she ever did.She seems perfectly happy, however, and financially speaking,it's a good marriage.’
‘It must be very agreeable to her to be such a short distance from her own family and friends.’
‘A short distance,you say?It is nearly eighty kilometres!’
‘And what is that?Little more than half a day's journey, on a good road.Yes,I call it a very short distance.’
‘I would never have said Mrs Collins lived near her family,’cried Elizabeth.
‘That shows how much you are attached to Hertfordshire. Anywhere outside the Longbourn area would,I suppose, seem far away to you. As he spoke,he smiled a little.
Perhaps he supposed she was thing of Jane and Nether- field, thought Elizabeth, and she blushed.‘ Whether the dis- tance seems long or short depends on many circumstances.If the family’ s income is large enough to pay for frequent jour- neys,then distance is not a problem.But Mr and Mrs Collins will not be able to afford to travel very often,despite their comfortable income.I'm certain my friend does not consider Hunsford near her family.’
Mr Darcy moved his chair a little towards her, and said, ‘You cannot have a right to such a very strong local attach-ment.You haven't spent your whole life at Longbourn, I am sure.
Elizabeth looked surprised.Experiencing a change of feeling, the gentleman moved his chair away again, took a newspaper from the table,and,glancing at it,said in a colder voice,‘Are you pleased with Kent?’They discussed Kent calmly and po- litely for a few minutes, and were then interrupted by Char- lotte and Maria, who had returned from the village. Mr Darcy sat a little while longer,without saying much to anybody,and then went away.
‘What can be the meaning of this!’said Charlotte, as soon as he had gone.‘My dear Lizzy, he must be in love with you, or he would never have visited us in this familiar way.’
But when Elizabeth described his silence, that did not seem likely, even to hopeful Charlotte, and they could only suppose that he had nothing better to do.In fact, from now on, both Mr Darcy and Colonel Fitzwilliam called regularly at the Rectory. It was obvious that Colonel Fitzwilliam came because he en- joyed talking to the ladies, and Elizabeth was reminded by her own satisfaction in being with him, as well as by his evident admiration of her,of her former favourite,Wickham.But it was more difficult to understand why Mr Darcy came. He did not often speak, and seldom appeared interested in the conversa- tion Even Charlotte, who observed Mr Darcy closely, was not sure whether he admired Elizabeth or not, and began to hope that perhaps her friend might marry Colonel Fitzwilliam in- stead.
When she took her daily walk along the path bordering the park, Elizabeth met Mr Darcy unexpectedly more than once. This was the more surprising, because she was careful to in- form him that it was her favourite walk, So that he could avoid meeting her.It was also strange that, although he could just have greeted her and walked on, he always thought it necessary to turn back and walk with her.She could not quite understand him.
But one day, as she was walking, she met Colonel Fitzwilliam, not Mr Darcy, and greeted him with a smile. They walked back to the Rectory together.
‘Are you leaving Kent this Sunday?’she asked.
‘Yes,if Darcy doesn't put it off again.’
‘He is fortunate to be able to arrange things as he likes.’
‘Well,we all want to do that,’replied Colonel Fitzwilliam.
‘But he is used to doing what he likes, because he is rich, and many others are poor.I,for example—I'm a younger son,you know, and won't inherit my father's fortune, so I shall never be rich or independent, like Darcy.’
‘Now seriously, you cannot call yourself poor.When have you ever suffered because of lack of money?’
‘Well,perhaps I haven't really suffered much yet.But there are difficulties.A younger son doesn't have a free choice when marrying.He cannot afford to marry a girl with no fortune.’
Elizabeth blushed, thinking that he might mean her, and be- gan to talk of something else. She asked him about Darcy's sis- ter,and mentioned that the Bingley sisters liked her very much.
‘Bingley—yes,I know them.Their brother is very pleasant—a great friend of Darcy’ s,’answered Colonel Fitzwilliam.
‘Oh, yes, Mr Darcy is extremely kind to Mr Bingley, and takes very good care of him,’said Elizabeth drily.
‘Yes, I believe Darcy does take care of Bingley.I'm think- ing of a recent situation, which Darcy was telling me about on the journey here.He was congratulating himself on having saved a friend from a most foolish marriage. Of course, I'm not sure the friend was Bingley,as Darcy didn't mention the name.
‘Did Mr Darcy give you his reasons for interfering?’
‘I understood that there were some very strong objections to the lady.’
Elizabeth could not speak for a moment.When she was able to control her anger, she changed the conversation.As soon as they reached the Rectory, she said goodbye to Colonel Fitzwilliam,and went straight upstairs to her room.At last she could think without interruption about what he had told her. Bingley,nust have been the friend to whom Darcy was refer- ring.She had always assumed that Darcy was involved in the plan to separate Jane and Bingley, but it now appeared that he, not Miss Bingley, was the main cause of all that Jane had suffered, and still continued to suffer.The‘very strong objec- tions to the lady’probably consisted of having one uncle who was a country lawyer, and another who was in business in Lon- don.There could be no possible objections to Jane herself, as she was intelligent, beautiful and charming. Nor could anyone object to Mr Bennet as a father-in-law.When Elizabeth thought of her mother, she felt a little less confident. She was still convinced,however, that Mr Darcy was interested in high- born connections rather than character or common sense. It was this, the worst kind of pride, which had destroyed for a while every hope of happiness for the most affectionate, gener- ons heart in the world.
Thinking about all this made Elizabeth so upset and unhap- py that she soon had a headache.It grew so much worse in the evening, and she was so unwilling to see Mr Darcy, that she decided not to go to Rosings that evening with Mr and Mrs Collins. Instead,she stayed in the Rectory sitting-room, reread- ing Jane's recent letters from London.She was saddened to discover that, although Jane never complained, or referred to the past,in almost every line there was a lack of cheerfulness, which Elizabeth had not noticed the first time, and which now made her rather anxious.She was relieved to think that Darcy would be leaving Rosings in two days’ time, and she herself would be with Jane in less than two weeks.Colonel Fitzwilliam would also be leaving with Darcy, but he had made it clear that he had no intention of proposing to her, so she did not intend to be unhappy about him.
Just then,she heard the doorbell,and wondered if it might be Colonel Fitzwilliam, come to enquire about her health. But to her astonishment she saw Mr Darcy walk into the room. In a hrried manner he began to ask how she was feeling.She answered him with cold politeness.He sat down for a few mo- ments, and then, getting up, walked about the room. Elizabeth was surprised, but said nothing. After a silence of several min- utes, he came towards her, with none of his usual calmness, and said,‘In vain have I struggled.It is no good.I cannot conquer my feelings. You must allow me to tell you how warmly I admire and love you.’
Elizabeth stared, blushed, doubted, and was silent. He con- sidered this sufficient encouragement, and confessed all that he felt, and had felt for a long time, for her. He expressed himself well, but it was not only of love that he spoke. He also talked of his pride, and his sense of her social inferiority, which had made him struggle against his feelings for so long.
In spite of her dislike for him,Elizabeth appreciated what a compliment such a man's affection was, and was at first sorry for the pain he was about to receive.But soon, as she heard his references to her inferior position,she lost all pity,and became very angry.She waited patiently,however,until he had finished.He ended by describing the strength of his love for her, whicn,in spite of all his attempts, he had been unable to con- quer with arguments of reason and common sense, and finally he asked for her hand in marriage.She could see that he had no doubt of a favourable answer, which only made her angrier.
‘I believe society considers it correct,in cases like this,’she replied,‘to express grateful thanks.So if I could feel grateful, I would now thank you.But I cannot—I have never wanted your good opinion of me, and I cannot accept it.I'm sorry to hurt anyone, but it has not been done deliberately, and I hope the pain will not last long.The pride which, you tell me,has long prevented the expression of your affection, can have little difficulty in conquering your feelings after this explanation.’
Mr Darcy, whose eyes were fixed on her face, was both an- gry and surprised by her words.His face went pale, and he was clearly struggling to control himself. There was a dreadful pause, and then he spoke in a voice of forced calmness.
‘And this is all the reply I am to have the honour of expect- ing!I might,perhaps,wish to be informed why,with so little attempt at politeness,I am rejected.’
‘I might as well ask why,with so evident a wish to offend and insult me, you chose to tell me that you loved me against your reason and even against your character.But even if my own feelings towards you had been favourable, do you think anything could tempt me to accept the man who has destroyed, perhaps for ever, the happiness of a most dear sister?’
As she said this, Mr Darcy changed colour, but he listened without trying to interrupt her as she continued.
‘I have every reason in the world to think badly of you.Can you deny that you were the cause of Jane's separation from Mr Bingley,and of her unhappiness?Can you deny it?’
‘I have no wish to deny that I did everything I could to separate them, and that I am delighted with my success. Towards my friend I have been kinder than to myself.’
Elizabeth treated this last remark with disdain, but its meaning did not escape her.‘But it is not only because of Jane that I dislike you. My opinion of you was decided long ago.I heard all about your character from Mr Wickham. Now, what can you have to say on this matter? How can you defend yourself?’
‘You take an eager interest in that gentleman,’said Darcy, less calmly than before The colour was rising in his face.
‘Who can help feeling an interest in him,when we hear of the unfortunate life he has had!’
‘Unfortunate!’repeated Darcy contemptuously.‘Yes,unfortunate indeed.’
‘And it was your fault,’cried Elizabeth with energy.‘You took away his chance of a comfortable income and a good position, which you knew had been intended for him.You have left him poor, and dependent, and disappointed.You have done all this!And you can still treat the mention of his name with contempt.’
‘And this,’ cried Darcy, as he walked with quick steps across the room,‘is your opinion of me!Thank you for explaining it so fully.But perhaps you might not have considered these offences of mine,if your pride had not been hurt by my honest confession of my reasons for not proposing to you earlier.Perhaps I should have hidden my struggles,and flat- tered you by pretending I had every reason to love you.But I hate disguise of any sort.Nor am I ashamed of my feelings of pride,which are very natural.Could you expect me to delight in the inferiority of your family compared to mine?’
Elizabeth felt herself growing more angry every moment.
‘Mr Darcy, you could not have made me the offer of your hand in any possible way that would have tempted me to accept it. The moment I first met you,I noticed your pride, your sense of superiority, and your selfish disdain for the feelings of others. Later events strengthened my dislike for you.You are the last man in the world whom I could ever be persuaded to marry.’
‘You have said quite enough, madam.I perfectly understand your feelings.Forgive me for having taken up so much of your time,and accept my best wishes for your health and happiness.’
With these words he hurried out of the room, and the house. Elizabeth felt so weak that she sat down and cried for half an hour.She was so astonished to have received a proposal from Mr Darcy!His affection for her must indeed have been strong,to conquer all the objections he had to her family and position, objections which had made him prevent his friend marrying her sister. But his terrible pride, his shameless confes- sion of what he had done to separate Jane and Bingley, and his 150cruelty towards Wickham soon removed any pity she might have felt for him.
7 達(dá)西求婚
第二天早上,伊麗莎白獨(dú)自坐著,給簡(jiǎn)寫(xiě)信??铝炙固同斃麃喸诖謇镔I(mǎi)東西。她聽(tīng)到門(mén)鈴響,知道有客人來(lái)了,但她見(jiàn)到達(dá)西先生,并且只有達(dá)西先生一個(gè)人被領(lǐng)進(jìn)屋時(shí),感到奇怪極了。
他發(fā)現(xiàn)她獨(dú)自一人,也似乎很驚訝。“班納特小姐,對(duì)不起,打擾你了。我還以為所有的女士都在家。”
“達(dá)西先生,請(qǐng)不要客氣。我想凱瑟琳夫人和小姐都還好吧?”
“很好,謝謝。”他又不說(shuō)話了。
看樣子他有危險(xiǎn)陷入完全的沉默。伊麗莎白必須找話說(shuō)了。她說(shuō):“達(dá)西先生,去年11月,你們離開(kāi)尼日斐太突然了,我想彬格萊先生和他的妹妹在你離開(kāi)倫敦時(shí)還好吧?”
“很好,謝謝。”這就是全部回答。
“我想我聽(tīng)說(shuō)過(guò),彬格萊先生不怎么打算再回尼日斐了?”
“將來(lái)他可能不會(huì)在那個(gè)地方呆多長(zhǎng)時(shí)間。他別處有很多朋友。”
伊麗莎白不想再往下談彬格萊先生了,下決心把話題留給達(dá)西先生,于是她保持沉默。他明白了,不一會(huì)兒,就又開(kāi)口說(shuō)話了。
“柯林斯先生選了這樣一位妻子似乎很幸運(yùn)。”
“是的,一點(diǎn)不錯(cuò)。有思想的婦女能接受他的不多,她便是其中的一個(gè)。不過(guò),我不敢肯定地認(rèn)為她嫁給柯林斯先生是最明智的做法??墒?,她似乎十分幸福,況且從經(jīng)濟(jì)上講,這個(gè)婚姻也不錯(cuò)。”
“離娘家和朋友這么近,她一定覺(jué)得很滿意。”
“你說(shuō)離得那么近?差不多八十公里呢!”
“那算得了什么,半天多一點(diǎn)就到了,若是路好的話。是的,我認(rèn)為是很近。”
“我永遠(yuǎn)不會(huì)認(rèn)為柯林斯太太住得離娘家近,”伊麗莎白大聲說(shuō)。
“這說(shuō)明你對(duì)哈福德郡的感情太深了。我想,浪搏恩以外的任何地方對(duì)你來(lái)說(shuō)都是很遠(yuǎn)的。”他說(shuō)話時(shí),露出了一絲微笑。
伊麗莎白想,也許他認(rèn)為自己在想簡(jiǎn)和尼日斐,于是臉就紅了。“距離的遠(yuǎn)近取決于很多因素。如果家庭收入足以支付頻繁的往來(lái),那么距離就不成問(wèn)題。但是,雖然他們有舒適的收入,柯林斯夫婦是承受不起經(jīng)常的旅行的。我相信,我的朋友不會(huì)認(rèn)為漢斯福離她家很近。”
達(dá)西先生把椅子朝她挪了挪,說(shuō):“你不該有這樣強(qiáng)的鄉(xiāng)土觀念??梢钥隙ǖ卣f(shuō),你不會(huì)一輩子都在浪搏恩度過(guò)的。”
伊麗莎白看起來(lái)有點(diǎn)驚奇。那位先生感受到了感情的變化,便又把椅子挪開(kāi),從桌上拿了一張報(bào)紙,瞟了瞟,用冷淡些的語(yǔ)氣說(shuō):“你對(duì)肯特郡感到滿意嗎?”他們又平靜客氣地討論了一會(huì)兒肯特郡,然后夏洛特和瑪利亞打斷了他們,這兩個(gè)人已從村里回來(lái)了。達(dá)西先生又坐了一會(huì)兒,也沒(méi)跟誰(shuí)說(shuō)多少話,便離開(kāi)了。
“這是什么意思!”他剛走,夏洛特就說(shuō)。“親愛(ài)的麗萃,他一定是愛(ài)上了你,否則,他絕不會(huì)以這種親切的方式拜訪我們。”
可是,當(dāng)伊麗莎白描述了他沉默的樣子之后,甚至是滿懷希望的夏洛特也覺(jué)得那不大可能。這樣,她們只能猜測(cè)他是沒(méi)事可做才來(lái)的。實(shí)際上,就從這時(shí)起,達(dá)西先生和費(fèi)茨威廉上校開(kāi)始定期造訪教區(qū)長(zhǎng)住宅。顯然,費(fèi)茨威廉上校來(lái)此是因?yàn)樗矚g與女士們交談,伊麗莎白和他在一起感到很滿意,而他又顯然愛(ài)慕她,這兩者都使她想起以前的寵兒韋翰先生??墒?,要弄明白達(dá)西先生為什么來(lái)就更困難些。他不常講話,也很少對(duì)談話表現(xiàn)出興趣。即使是密切注視達(dá)西先生的夏洛特,也不敢肯定他是否愛(ài)慕伊麗莎白,于是,她開(kāi)始希望,也許伊麗莎白可以轉(zhuǎn)而嫁給費(fèi)茨威廉上校。
伊麗莎白每天沿公園旁的小徑散步時(shí),不止一次地意外碰到達(dá)西先生。這就更奇怪了,因?yàn)樗⌒牡馗嬖V他這是她最喜歡的散步方式,以便讓他避免碰見(jiàn)她。還有令人奇怪的是,他完全可以只和她打個(gè)招呼便繼續(xù)往前走,可他總是覺(jué)得有必要掉轉(zhuǎn)頭和她一起走。她搞不大明白。
可是有一天,她在散步時(shí)碰到了費(fèi)茨威廉上校,而不是達(dá)西先生,便微笑著和他打了招呼。他們一塊走回到教區(qū)長(zhǎng)住宅。
“你們這個(gè)星期日離開(kāi)肯特郡嗎?”她問(wèn)道。
“是的,如果達(dá)西不再往后推的話。”
“他很幸運(yùn),安排事情有自主權(quán)。”
“哎,我們都想有自主權(quán),”費(fèi)茨威廉上?;卮鹫f(shuō)。
“但是他習(xí)慣于我行我素,因?yàn)樗芨挥?,而其他很多人都很窮。比方說(shuō)我——我不是長(zhǎng)子,你也知道,繼承不了父親的家產(chǎn),因此,我永遠(yuǎn)不會(huì)像達(dá)西那樣富有或獨(dú)立自主。”
“認(rèn)真點(diǎn)兒講,你不能說(shuō)自己窮。你什么時(shí)候因缺錢(qián)受過(guò)罪?”
“也許我還沒(méi)有真正受過(guò)罪。但確實(shí)有困難。小兒子結(jié)婚時(shí)沒(méi)有自由選擇的余地。他沒(méi)有經(jīng)濟(jì)能力同沒(méi)有財(cái)產(chǎn)的女人結(jié)婚。”
伊麗莎白臉一紅,覺(jué)得他可能指自己,于是趕緊岔開(kāi)了話題。她問(wèn)他達(dá)西的妹妹的情況,并提及彬格萊姐妹很喜歡她。
“彬格萊——是的,我認(rèn)識(shí)她們。她們的哥哥很招人喜歡——是達(dá)西的好朋友之一,”費(fèi)茨威廉上?;卮鹫f(shuō)。
“哦,是的,達(dá)西先生對(duì)彬格萊先生極好,對(duì)他十分關(guān)照,”伊麗莎白冷冰冰地說(shuō)。
“是的,我覺(jué)得達(dá)西確實(shí)關(guān)照彬格萊。我想起了最近的一件事,是達(dá)西在到這里來(lái)的路上告訴我的。他慶幸自己阻止了一位朋友卷入一樁最愚蠢的婚姻。當(dāng)然,我不敢肯定這位朋友就是彬格萊,因?yàn)檫_(dá)西沒(méi)有提他的名字。”
“達(dá)西先生是否擺出了干涉的理由?”
“我的理解是有些人強(qiáng)烈反對(duì)這位小姐。”
伊麗莎白一時(shí)說(shuō)不出話來(lái)。她壓住心頭的怒火,改變了話題。他們一到教區(qū)長(zhǎng)住宅,她便向費(fèi)茨威廉上校道了別,徑直到了樓上自己的房間。現(xiàn)在終于可以不受干擾,獨(dú)自思考一下他告訴她的這件事了。達(dá)西所指的那位朋友一定是彬格萊。她一直都在猜測(cè)達(dá)西參與了拆散簡(jiǎn)和彬格萊的計(jì)劃,但現(xiàn)在似乎清楚了,是他,而不是彬格萊小姐,做了簡(jiǎn)已經(jīng)遭受和繼續(xù)遭受的痛苦的罪魁禍?zhǔn)住?ldquo;強(qiáng)烈反對(duì)這位小姐”的原因可能包括她有一個(gè)姨父做鄉(xiāng)村律師,還有個(gè)舅舅在倫敦做買(mǎi)賣(mài)。對(duì)簡(jiǎn)本人不大可能有什么反對(duì)意見(jiàn),因?yàn)樗敺f、漂亮、迷人。也不會(huì)有人反對(duì)認(rèn)班納特先生做老岳父的。伊麗莎白想到母親時(shí),感到有點(diǎn)缺乏自信。但是,她仍然堅(jiān)信,達(dá)西先生只喜歡攀出身高貴的人,不喜歡平民百姓。正是這種最?lèi)憾镜陌谅?,暫時(shí)毀掉了世界上最摯誠(chéng)、最寬厚的一顆心所抱的每一線獲得幸福的希望。
想到所有這些,伊麗莎白感到萬(wàn)分不安和難過(guò),一會(huì)兒就犯了頭痛玻到了晚上,頭痛愈加劇烈,加上她不愿見(jiàn)到達(dá)西先生,于是她決定晚上不陪柯林斯夫婦去羅新斯了。相反,她呆在教區(qū)長(zhǎng)家的起居室里,重讀簡(jiǎn)最近從倫敦的來(lái)信。她難過(guò)地發(fā)現(xiàn),雖然簡(jiǎn)從來(lái)沒(méi)有抱怨過(guò)或提起過(guò)過(guò)去,但信中幾乎每一行都流露出悶悶不樂(lè)的情緒。伊麗莎白讀第一遍時(shí)沒(méi)注意到,現(xiàn)在這使她有點(diǎn)焦急。一想到達(dá)西再過(guò)兩天就要離開(kāi)羅新斯,她本人也將在兩周后見(jiàn)到簡(jiǎn),心里便放松了一點(diǎn)。費(fèi)茨威廉上校也將同達(dá)西一塊走,但他已經(jīng)挑明他無(wú)意向她求婚,所以,她不打算為他表示悲傷。
正在這時(shí),她聽(tīng)到了門(mén)鈴聲,心中納悶會(huì)不會(huì)是費(fèi)茨威廉上校來(lái)探問(wèn)她的身體狀況。但是,令她大吃一驚的是,她看到達(dá)西先生走進(jìn)了屋子。他匆匆地開(kāi)始詢問(wèn)她感覺(jué)如何。她冷冰冰地客氣地回答了他。他坐下,呆了一會(huì)兒,然后又站起來(lái),在房間里踱來(lái)踱去。伊麗莎白感到奇怪,但什么也沒(méi)說(shuō)。幾分鐘沉默過(guò)后,他朝她走過(guò)來(lái),一掃平時(shí)的冷靜,說(shuō)道:“我徒勞地進(jìn)行思想斗爭(zhēng),但毫無(wú)用處。我再也無(wú)法控制自己的感情了。請(qǐng)?jiān)试S我告訴你我多么敬慕你,多么愛(ài)你。”
伊麗莎白瞪大了眼睛,漲紅了臉,滿腹狐疑,一句話也說(shuō)不出來(lái)。他一看這情景,認(rèn)為是在慫恿自己說(shuō)下去,立即向她傾吐了所有的感情,既有現(xiàn)在的,也有長(zhǎng)期以來(lái)就感受到的。他表達(dá)得很充分,不但談了他的愛(ài),還談到了他的傲慢,談到他覺(jué)得她出身卑徽,正是這一點(diǎn)使他與感情進(jìn)行了長(zhǎng)期的思想斗爭(zhēng)。
雖然伊麗莎白討厭他,但她認(rèn)識(shí)到能得到這樣的男人的愛(ài)是多大的恭維呀,所以開(kāi)始時(shí)還對(duì)他即將接受的痛苦感到遺憾。但不久,她聽(tīng)到他說(shuō)自己出身卑微,所有的憐憫之情便為憤怒所取代。但是,她耐心地等到他講完。他最后形容了他對(duì)她的愛(ài)的力量,雖然他幾經(jīng)努力,但這種愛(ài)情的力量是無(wú)法用理性和經(jīng)驗(yàn)戰(zhàn)勝的,最后,他請(qǐng)求她接受他的求婚。她看得出,他自信能得到肯定的回答,這使得她更加惱怒。
她回答道:“我想,在這種情況下,社會(huì)上會(huì)認(rèn)為應(yīng)當(dāng)表達(dá)一下感激之情。因此,如果我真覺(jué)得感激,我現(xiàn)在會(huì)謝你的??上椰F(xiàn)在沒(méi)有這種感覺(jué)——我從來(lái)不稀罕你的抬舉,我也不接受你的抬舉。我不愿?jìng)θ魏稳耍也⒉皇枪室獾?,我希望這痛苦不會(huì)持續(xù)太久。你說(shuō)過(guò),高傲使得你長(zhǎng)期以來(lái)無(wú)法表達(dá)愛(ài)慕之情,但在你聽(tīng)了我的解釋之后,高傲?xí)敛毁M(fèi)力地戰(zhàn)勝你的感情。”
達(dá)西先生一雙眼睛緊緊盯著她的臉,聽(tīng)了這話,既氣憤,又驚奇。他的臉色煞白,很顯然在努力控制自己??膳碌耐nD過(guò)后,他竭力裝出一副鎮(zhèn)定的樣子說(shuō):
“我很榮幸,竟能得到這樣一個(gè)回答。也許我可以請(qǐng)教一下,為什么我竟會(huì)遭到如此無(wú)禮的拒絕?”
“我也要請(qǐng)教你一下,你明明存心要冒犯我、侮辱我,卻為什么要違背理性甚至自己的品格,說(shuō)你愛(ài)我。但是,即便我對(duì)你的感情是肯定的,那么,也請(qǐng)你想一想,還有什么能打動(dòng)我的心,讓我去愛(ài)一個(gè)毀了我最親愛(ài)的姐姐的幸福、甚至永遠(yuǎn)毀了她幸福的人?”
達(dá)西聽(tīng)了她的話,臉色大變。但他聽(tīng)著她繼續(xù)往下說(shuō),一時(shí)不想插嘴。
“我有千萬(wàn)條理由把你往壞里想。你能否認(rèn)你是拆散簡(jiǎn)和彬格萊先生、毀掉她幸福的罪魁禍?zhǔn)讍?你能否認(rèn)嗎?”
“我不想否認(rèn)我竭盡全力把他們拆散,而且我還為我的成功感到喜悅。我對(duì)朋友比對(duì)自己體貼。”
伊麗莎白對(duì)他最后一句話十分鄙視,但他的用意她當(dāng)然清楚。“但是,并不僅僅是因?yàn)楹?jiǎn)我才討厭你。我對(duì)你早有成見(jiàn),韋翰先生把你的品格全告訴我了?,F(xiàn)在,對(duì)這個(gè)你還有什么話可說(shuō)?你怎么為自己辯護(hù)?”
“你對(duì)那位先生倒挺關(guān)心的,”達(dá)西說(shuō)道,語(yǔ)氣已沒(méi)有先前鎮(zhèn)定。他的臉也更紅了。
“凡是聽(tīng)過(guò)他不幸遭遇的人,誰(shuí)能不關(guān)心他!”
“不幸遭遇!”達(dá)西輕蔑地重復(fù)道。“是的,真夠不幸的。”
“這都是你一手造成的,”伊麗莎白使勁高聲說(shuō)。“是你剝奪了他享受舒適的收入和良好地位的機(jī)會(huì),你清楚,這些本來(lái)都是屬于他的。是你造成了他的貧困,讓他無(wú)法獨(dú)立,滿心失望。這一切都是你干的!可是現(xiàn)在,你提起他的名字卻還帶著鄙夷。”
“這就是你對(duì)我的看法!”達(dá)西一邊大聲叫嚷,一邊快速往屋子那頭走。“謝謝你解釋得這樣周全。不過(guò)要不是我把以前遲疑不決的原因如實(shí)說(shuō)出來(lái),傷害了你的自尊心,也許你不會(huì)計(jì)較我得罪你的這些地方。也許我應(yīng)當(dāng)把我的思想矛盾隱瞞起來(lái),假裝我有一切愛(ài)你的理由,來(lái)奉承你。但是,我不喜歡任何形式的偽裝。我也不為自己的高傲感到羞恥,因?yàn)槟鞘呛茏匀坏?。難道你指望我為你那些同我的親戚無(wú)法相提并論的微賤的親戚歡欣鼓舞嗎?”
伊麗莎白感到越來(lái)越氣惱。
“達(dá)西先生,你用任何方式向我求婚,也不能打動(dòng)我,讓我接受。從認(rèn)識(shí)你的那一剎那起,我就注意到了你的狂妄自大、你高人一等的感覺(jué)以及對(duì)別人感情的自私蔑視。以后發(fā)生的事加深了我對(duì)你的反感。哪怕天下男人都死光了,我也不愿嫁給你。”
“你說(shuō)夠了,小姐,我完全理解你的感情。占用了你這么多時(shí)間,請(qǐng)?jiān)彙N抑孕牡刈T改憬】?、幸福?rdquo;
說(shuō)完這些話,他匆匆走出房間,走出宅院。伊麗莎白感到虛弱無(wú)比,坐下來(lái)哭了半個(gè)小時(shí)。達(dá)西先生向他求婚,簡(jiǎn)直太令人驚訝了!他對(duì)她的愛(ài)一定的確十分強(qiáng)烈,它克服了家庭、地位的障礙,克服了自己用以阻撓朋友同她姐姐結(jié)婚的障礙。但他那可怕的高傲自大,他那對(duì)拆散簡(jiǎn)和彬格萊的姻緣的恬不知恥的坦白,以及他對(duì)韋翰的殘酷無(wú)情,不久便把她可能產(chǎn)生的憐憫之情沖刷得蕩然無(wú)存。