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The first letter
第一封信
Dear Catherine:
親愛的凱瑟琳:
I'm sorry I haven't talked to you in so long. I feel I've been lost, no bearings, no compass. I kept crashing into things, a little crazy, I guess. I've never been lost before. You were my true north. I could always steer for home when you were my home. Forgive me for being so angry when you left. I still think some mistake's been made and I'm waiting for God to take it back. But I'm doing better now. The work helps me. Most of all, you help me. You came into my dream last night with that smile that always held the like a lover, rocked me like a child. All I remember from the dream is a feeling of peace. I woke up with that feeling and tried to keep it alive as long as I could. I'm writing to tell you that I'm on a journey toward that peace. And to tell you I'm sorry about so many things. I'm sorry I didn' t take better care of you so that you never spent one minute being cold or scared or sick. I'm sorry I didn' t try harder to find the words to tell you what I was feeling. I'm sorry I never fixed the screen door. I fixed it now. I'm sorry I ever fought with you. I'm sorry I didn' t apologize more. I was too proud. I'm sorry I didn't bring you more complement on everything you wore and every way you fixed your hair. I'm sorry I didn't hold on to you with so much strength that even God couldn't pull you away.
對不起,這么長時(shí)間沒和你聊一聊。我感覺自己迷失了,找不到方向了,也不有人指路。我東撞西撞,不知所措。我從未這樣過,你曾經(jīng)是我的方向。你就是我的家,只要有你,我總能找到回家的咱。原諒我,在你離開時(shí),我憤怒極了。 我仍然覺得,是上帝弄錯(cuò)了。我一直等著一切可以重來!現(xiàn)在,我已經(jīng)好多了。工作幫且了我,最重要的是,你幫助了我。昨晚,你著微笑進(jìn)入我的夢中,像愛人般地?fù)肀?,輕輕地像搖孩子般地?fù)u著我。夢中,一切都無比的寧靜。醒來時(shí),依然可以感覺到這份寧靜,真想永遠(yuǎn)擁有這樣的感覺我想告訴你,我正啟程前往那片寧靜。我還想告訴你,我為很多事情感到后悔。后悔沒有更好地照顧你,而讓你時(shí)刻受凍,擔(dān)驚,生病。原諒我,沒再費(fèi)心找到合適的語言,表達(dá)我的感受。原諒我,一直沒把屏風(fēng)修好?,F(xiàn)在,已經(jīng)修好了。原諒我,曾經(jīng)和你吵架。原諒我,沒再跟你道歉。我太驕傲了。原諒我,沒用更美的語言贊美你——你每天的衣服,你每天的發(fā)型。原諒我,沒有更緊地抱著你,而讓上帝把你帶走了。
All my love, G
愛你的人,G