偶像勵志英語演講 81:做真正的自己(3)

[00:00.02]Anyway, I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life, 總之，當(dāng)時我不知道自己這一輩子要干什么， [00:03.06]and the way I ended up on this path was from a very tragic event. 最后因?yàn)橐患直瘧K的事情，我找到了自己的人生目標(biāo)。 [00:08.06]I was maybe 19, and my girlfriend at the time was killed in a car accident. 大約是在19歲時，我的女朋友在一次車禍中身亡。 [00:15.31]And I passed the accident, and I didn't know it was her and I kept going, 我路過事故現(xiàn)場時不知道是她，就繼續(xù)走。 [00:19.45]and I found out shortly after that, it was her. 但不久我發(fā)現(xiàn)，那就是她。 [00:24.11]And I was living in a basement apartment, I had no money, I had no heat, no air, 當(dāng)時我住在地下室的公寓里，我沒有錢，沒有暖氣，沒有新鮮空氣， [00:31.19]I had a mattress on the floor and the apartment was infested with fleas. 只是在地板上鋪一個墊子，房間里到處都是跳蚤。 [00:35.24]And I was soul-searching, I was like, why is she suddenly gone, and there are fleas here? 我感到困惑不已。我在想，“為什么她突然走了?為什么我住在滿是跳蚤的房子里?” [00:40.55]I don't understand, there must be a purpose, 我無法理解，但一定有理由的， [00:43.03]and wouldn't it be so convenient if we could pick up the phone and call God, and ask these questions. 要是能直接拿起電話問上帝的話不是太好了嗎? [00:48.36]And I started writing and what poured out of me was an imaginary conversation with God, which was one-sided, 于是我開始寫東西，腦海中涌現(xiàn)出一段與上帝的對話，那是只有我一個人的獨(dú)白。 [00:55.44]and I finished writing it and I looked at it and I said to myself, 寫完之后，我看著我寫的東西，對自己講話。 [01:00.51]and I hadn't even been doing stand-up, ever, there was no club in town. 那時，我還沒有開始做單人脫口秀節(jié)目，因?yàn)楫?dāng)時新奧爾良沒有俱樂部。 [01:03.41]I said, "I'm gonna do this on the Tonight Show with Johnny Carson" at the time he was the king- 我說，我將要在“今夜秀”上和約翰尼·卡森一起表演這一段。他當(dāng)時是主持界天王， [01:08.27]"and I'm gonna be the first woman in the history of the show to be called over to sit down." 我將成為該節(jié)目史上第一個和他一起坐下被訪問的女性。 [01:12.57]And several years later, I was the first woman in the history of the show, and only woman in the history of the show to sit down, 數(shù)年之后，我成了該節(jié)目史上第一位、也是唯一一位和約翰尼一起坐下被訪問的女性， [01:19.37]because of that phone conversation with God that I wrote. 完全是因?yàn)槲覍懙摹芭c上帝打電話對話”的劇本。 [01:22.15]And I started this path of stand-up and it was successful and it was great, 從此我開始做單人脫口秀節(jié)目，并且非常成功。 [01:30.18]but it was hard, because I was trying to please everybody 但也非常艱難，因?yàn)槲蚁肴偯恳粋€人。 [01:33.59]and I had this secret that I was keeping, that I was gay. 我守著一個秘密，那就是我是一個同性戀， [01:36.09]And I thought if people found out they wouldn't like me, they would laugh at me. 我想人們要是發(fā)現(xiàn)了，就不會喜歡我了，還會嘲笑我。

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