10th grade
As I sat there in English class, I started at the girl next to me. She was my so called "Best friend", I started at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it.
After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and I handed them to her. She said "Thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I am just too shy, and I don't know why.
11th grade
The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears,mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa,I stared at her soft eyes. wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep.
She looked at me, said"thanks"and gave me a kiss on the check. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't to be just friends, I love her but I am just tooshy, and I don't know why.
Senior year
The day before prom she walked to my locker. "My date is sick", she said; he's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as"best friends", So we did. Prom might, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step! I started at her as she smiled at me and started at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine,but she isn't thinking of me like that, and I know it. Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her. I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends. I love her but I am just too shy, and I don't know why.
Graduation Day
A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "you are my best friends, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends. I love her I am just too shy, and I don't know why.
A Few Years Later
Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!" She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I am just too shy, and I don't know why.
Funeral
Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend", At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read. I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it, I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him just too shy, and I don't why. I wish he would tell me he loved me!
I wish I did too, I thought to myself, and I cried.
10年級(jí)
英語(yǔ)課上,我默默注視著鄰座的女生,我所謂的好朋友。看著她長(zhǎng)長(zhǎng)的秀發(fā),多希望她是屬于我的。但她不知道我內(nèi)心的想法,這點(diǎn)我很清楚。
課后,她向我走來(lái),找我借昨天的筆記,因?yàn)樗蛱鞗](méi)來(lái)上課,拿到筆記后,她謝謝我,并在我臉上輕輕一吻。我想告訴她,想讓她知道,我不想只是朋友,我愛(ài)她,只是我太害羞,我不明白為什么。
11年級(jí)
電話鈴響。是她打來(lái)的,她哭泣著,訴說(shuō)著她愛(ài)情破裂了,心也碎了。她希望我能過(guò)去陪她,因?yàn)樗ε鹿聠我蝗恕N疫^(guò)去了,我們一起坐在沙發(fā)上??粗郎厝岬碾p眸,我希望她是屬于我的。兩小時(shí)后,看了一部德魯·巴里摩爾的電影、吃掉了3袋炸土豆條后,她決定上床休息。
她看著我,謝謝我,并在我臉上輕輕一吻。我想讓她知道,我希望不只是朋友,我愛(ài)她,只是我太害羞,我不明白為什么。
12年級(jí)
畢業(yè)舞會(huì)前,她來(lái)到我的櫥柜前,告訴我:我的舞伴病了;舞會(huì)前他無(wú)法恢復(fù),而我也沒(méi)有舞伴,7年級(jí)時(shí)我們?cè)s定,如果畢業(yè)舞會(huì)時(shí)我們都沒(méi)有舞伴,我們要一起去,只是以好朋友的身份,現(xiàn)在情況真如我們所約定的。畢業(yè)舞會(huì)那晚,一切結(jié)束后,站在她的房間前門(mén)檻處,我們雙目對(duì)視,她用她充滿笑意的、清澈的雙眸望著我。我希望她是我的,但她不是這么想的,這點(diǎn)我很清楚。她告訴我,她很開(kāi)心,謝謝我,并在我臉上輕輕一吻。我想告訴她,想讓她知道,我希望不只是朋友,我愛(ài)她,只是我太害羞,我不明白為什么。
畢業(yè)典禮
日子就這樣一天天流逝,轉(zhuǎn)眼間就到了畢業(yè)的那一天??粗昝赖纳眢w如同天使一般飛上舞臺(tái),接受學(xué)位。我希望她是我的,但她不知道我內(nèi)心的想法,這點(diǎn)我很清楚?;丶抑?,她身穿學(xué)位服,頭戴學(xué)位帽,眼中含淚,我將她攬人懷中,她抬起頭,告訴我,你是我最好的朋友,謝謝你,然后在我臉上輕輕一吻。我想告訴她,想讓她知道,我希望不只是朋友,我愛(ài)她,只是我太害羞,我不明白為什么。
幾年后
我坐在教堂里,女孩今天結(jié)婚,看著她對(duì)另一個(gè)男人說(shuō)我愿意;,開(kāi)始他們的新生活。我希望她是我的,但她不知道我內(nèi)心的想法,這點(diǎn)我很清楚。開(kāi)車離開(kāi)之前,她走向我,說(shuō):你來(lái)了啊!她謝謝我,并在我臉上輕輕一吻。我想告訴她,讓她知道,我希望不只是朋友,我愛(ài)她,只是我太害羞,我不明白為什么。
喪禮
多年以后,我看著棺材里躺著的曾經(jīng)是我好朋友的女孩。喪禮上,他們念到一篇她中學(xué)時(shí)代寫(xiě)的一篇日記,日記如是說(shuō):注視著他,我希望他是屬于我的,但他不知道我內(nèi)心的想法,這點(diǎn)我很清楚。我想告訴他,想讓他知道,我希望不只是朋友,我愛(ài)他,只是我太害羞,我不明白為什么。我希望他能告訴我他是愛(ài)我的。
我也希望我告訴過(guò)她。這樣想著,我不禁潸然淚下。